first, it's funny how alike we are. On this blog, I often think that your entries are mine (except for the baby ones... I KNOW those aren't mine.) and mine are yours. Like the "life's purpose" one below, I forgot about it and was like "jeez kibibi thinks just like me" and then I saw the baby one and the beginning (independent) is just like me and so I thought I wrote it. Funny.

You are going to be ridiculously sexy, goddess, when you get to Hawai'i. Burned lips and all. I must warn you that I've gained weight.

I battle with the make-room-or-don't-make-room question all the time. A part of me embodies the song Landslide because I almost don't want to change or grow too much, just so that my future husband will know all these different sides of me. And if I let go of them, then he won't see them. Which is silly for a woman who always wants to be complete without another human being, who wants to work on herself CONSTANTLY to the point of insanity sometimes. But still, we all have our own small, secret treasures that we hold on to. Mine is a hope for a man that knows me, even the parts of me that I have to let go of.

So I think we just live our lives to the best of our abilities. And some days we make room, and other days we live in the space of just that day, and in the end it'll all turn out the way it's meant to.

There's a Buddhist saying that Life is perfect. As in, all of those so-called mistakes were actually a pattern in your life's fabric that was meant to be. Everything happens as it should--including our hesitations, our uncertainties, our "oh-if-only-i-knew" moments. And I think that our faith has room for this belief, too. When I heard it, it was a final succinct way to put how I felt--if I'm in the palm of my Father's hand, then nothing can go wrong. Thankfully, God is magnificent enough to cover all of my wandering ways and short-sightedness. So, I say (to myself, above all): Choose, Go, and Make adjustments as needed.